The Big Trauma

Only free at little times,
I feel depressed most of my life,
A state where I´m mentally caged up and doomed,
Suffering from a loss of identity,
Feeling strange and like a ghost,
My self is not in me where is my host,
I said strange that is how life appears to me,
I feel these pressures they make me feel unfree,
As if I´m dreaming,
Worse,
As if I´m in a nightmare,
Wandering around in a dark cave,
Longing to find ist exit towards the light,
I need to find the light in this big trauma!

Copyright © 1999 Oliver Mahmoudi

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